Why I say No?
As a Filipino, we always have a soft heart to our family, isn't it? I am sure if you are an overseas worker or maybe you work just in your town - You feel obliged to give money once any part of your family asks you to have some?
Yesterday my sister ask me money and I replied her back, What is the money for? Then she responded this, " I want to travel to Camp Sawi in Cebu with Kyang2........ even if mama will not allow me, I will lie because I really want to travel.."
I honestly feel bad like I even mumbled: "WHAT THE FUCK!"
Fact: Yes I have money but she will lie to travel with her friends? What if something happened, my mom, will surely kill me!
So in the late night, I chatted my friend who is also a friend of my sister that she was asking me money for that Cebu trip and you know what she replied? " Just your graduation gift!"
It is not that I never received graduation gift but IT IS IN NOT IMPORTANT AND IT IS NOT WORTH IT TO GIVE ESPECIALLY THE MOTIVE IS NOT GOOD! LYING TO MAMA? WTF!
Last time I send her money because she asks me some, I thought it would fall to her projects but she spends it rebonding her hair, I do not even do rebonding because it is expensive. wow! You have no idea how many Chinese classes I taught for 2 usd per hour just to save that money and because I thought it will help her to some of her projects, it is okay for me but what REBONDING?!
Why I am mad?
Because I cannot consider that even she is my bloody sister she will just take it easy to spend to the money I work hard. I work hard any single cent of it that no need to enumerate to all sleepless nights to just do the work done.
I am so happy to my mom that she never ask me money ever and so I also never ask her money anymore, my mama always reminds me to save. Thank you Mama Christy! I love you for never pressuring me on my life, You are the best mom.
I just want to wake up that we all work hard and we should spend the money wisely! I even just refill my water bottle of water in the hostel than buying water all the time. Refill my shampoo bottle from a shampoo provided in the different hostel, no buying clothes but giving away that is not needed so I can carry less weight along with my travel, I eat twice a day with a heavy meal and drink a lot of water to maintain my weight and not that expensive, I even stay in the hostel so I will pay cheap and with free internet.
I know somehow my kind of life is not usually the type of Life you wanted. Yes I want to settle one day, have my own house in a tree house, plant the vegetables I want to eat and flowers that I badly want the scent, adopt dogs and cats to be my company and enjoy talking with my parents and family but at the moment my priority is to experience the world whilst I am able to do it- Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.
My priority is where my energy and time spent it well.
Do not get me wrong, I love my family but if they need me the most, I drop all the things for them.
And to say it with sense, I went home and take care, my grandma, last 2015 until she died. I can sacrifice my time if it is really important, and now that the world is having me mission somewhere else, it is somewhat scary and sad sometimes being alone but I feel the Universe of God gave me more strength that I could not imagine that I have. In that way, I never felt alone somehow.
To end this I will take the thought of what my mama told me, Save because it is not always Sunny days! Do not spend it to those it doesn't matter at all. :)
To my sister that I said no I will say this again from my last message, It feels so good when you travel and the money you spend is from all the work hard you did.
Do not give them fish, teach them to go fishing!!!
Happy Myerkules!
Smile because not everyone is able to stand up and live in this wonderful life :)
PS. Why I am into saving now? I am turning 25 years old and so getting old is soon. I wish I can retire early as possible :)
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