What is First Love?

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What is first love?

I'm sure if you have try first love- you know what I mean.

Its so good to be true at first but it so heart breaking when it will end.

You will learn a lot in your first love and it would always stay in your mind and heart that no one can replace it.

I even ask people I've met along the way about first love. Chinese guy who was next to me in the plane on my way to Singapore told me that - first love most of the time won't last and its always heart breaking. He even told me that when he had it he move on for like 5 years. He even told me to take care myself and accept it because that's the only two I can do have now. Next person I've asked is a local Indonesian yesterday named madam imas ( I called her madam) told me that she move on in 3 years and after that she got  married. And lastly I've ask is still local Indonesian named mis she told me she was fifteen that she got her first love and married to the guy and until now they are still together. Mis ended good but you know she gave me a piece of advice that maybe he's a wrong person for me. Hearing those advises feels good and thank you for these people that it ease a little bit of pain I have.

I am now in vacation in Gili T , Indonesia. I am writing this in front of pandawa.  I am already half way in my holiday. First I was in Singapore, bali and now here in Gili T.

Most of the time I remember my first love and still it hurts. I keep myself high to keep him off my mind.

I can't take him off in my mind. The feelings and memory is still there. Sometimes I saw people and think it was him and hoping hell come around.

First love sucks but it helps you to know more about in life. The pain demands to be felt. But I'm sure everything has its right time to heal.

It hurts maybe because you dont expect that it gonna end up soon. And your hurt because all the memories you think it gonna be wasted.

When you are hurt you will learn how to slow down for the next time, never believing the chezzy promises and you will love your self more.

The most important I learn in my first love though now its broken - love yourself more! Enjoy when it comes but never expect it will be forever!

To my first love that he may read this one day.

Thank you. And I wish you have a great life! Cheers for all the memories :)

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